In the storm, the tree that bends with the wind
is the one that survives to grow tall.
Brenda Scheffer
Most of my life was spent surviving actual and perceived “storms” –inside and out. What I did instinctively was constrict my insides to create physical and mental walls against the perceived impending threat – never realizing that I was actually preparing for my own misery and destruction.
I did not know what else to do. I was powerless, and was trying to control the uncontrollable.
The “winds” were violent waves of emotional energy that would sweep across my brain -- the past, crashing into the present, driving my thoughts and reactions deep into the future – leaving me wounded and broken – barely alive – clinging desperately to fragments of what seemed left of my living and breathing – never realizing that destruction was caused by my resistance to the inner forces.
Finally, in my desperation, I heard that not everyone blown by such inner and outer force suffered the way I did. Maybe there was a solution to my pain – an escape from my dyingness.
I reached out, I listened, I watched, and I “saw” something in the corners of my heart, where I had not looked. A Presence, a loving caring energy, someone waiting for me to accept and connect so I could become free to be and to become.
My process of becoming bendable and strong over the last twenty plus years have been fairly simple, but amazingly effective:
1. Feel the feelings that are being forced to the surface of my consciousness by circumstances and memories.
2. Connect to a higher Presence by connecting with other wounded seekers, like me.
3. Act in trust that all is being taken care of – do the next right thing, take the next right breath, do what I would be doing if the winds were not blowing.
These steps have created a flexibility of mind and spirit that can weather any storm, and any force of life. For me, they had to become a way of life and not just a prearranged storm plan. Otherwise, my humanness would eventually take over, and I would again have to fight and resist – and “die” -- supposedly to survive.
Brenda Scheffer
Most of my life was spent surviving actual and perceived “storms” –inside and out. What I did instinctively was constrict my insides to create physical and mental walls against the perceived impending threat – never realizing that I was actually preparing for my own misery and destruction.
I did not know what else to do. I was powerless, and was trying to control the uncontrollable.
The “winds” were violent waves of emotional energy that would sweep across my brain -- the past, crashing into the present, driving my thoughts and reactions deep into the future – leaving me wounded and broken – barely alive – clinging desperately to fragments of what seemed left of my living and breathing – never realizing that destruction was caused by my resistance to the inner forces.
Finally, in my desperation, I heard that not everyone blown by such inner and outer force suffered the way I did. Maybe there was a solution to my pain – an escape from my dyingness.
I reached out, I listened, I watched, and I “saw” something in the corners of my heart, where I had not looked. A Presence, a loving caring energy, someone waiting for me to accept and connect so I could become free to be and to become.
My process of becoming bendable and strong over the last twenty plus years have been fairly simple, but amazingly effective:
1. Feel the feelings that are being forced to the surface of my consciousness by circumstances and memories.
2. Connect to a higher Presence by connecting with other wounded seekers, like me.
3. Act in trust that all is being taken care of – do the next right thing, take the next right breath, do what I would be doing if the winds were not blowing.
These steps have created a flexibility of mind and spirit that can weather any storm, and any force of life. For me, they had to become a way of life and not just a prearranged storm plan. Otherwise, my humanness would eventually take over, and I would again have to fight and resist – and “die” -- supposedly to survive.
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